13
I'm not trying to be Royston Tan by giving this post a number title. I really love 13 too much, so much such that it has already marked many mildstones in my life, from then till now, and never failing me miraculously.
I try not to regret upon my decision each time but that itself is more often than not an irony. I guess it's not how fast you reach a point, but rather how at ease you are with the journey. Are you happy? Do you dread the very moment when you wake up? That is the balance I am trying to seek. I guess for the time to come, I will achieve that, regardless of the longer time I have taken =)
I have never felt so unhappy in my life until this year, seriously. I felt like I have been taken this emotional rollarcoaster, much worst than the ones in Universal Studios. People who know me fairly well should know how repulsive I am to such thrills. It has been a false front I am constantly portraying to the outside world.
And then I also come to realise there is really alot of effort to be made to every friendships or relationships. At every point of our lives we are close to certain friends, just so because we go through that phase together. But really, are these friends those whom we can see ourselves with 10 years down the road? All the holidays, outings together at those phases are merely pseudo relationships which are so susceptible to falling apart when everyone begins the next phase of their lives and maintains minimal effort to keep up with the friendships.
To all friends who are still around, in some way or another, and obviously I do not mean by being virtually around this dormant blog to keep up a friendship, really thanks for all the little effort you have put in to keep the friendship going. I totally understand how hectic and tiring working/schooling life is but I guess you just need that minimal effort to keep things alive.
And to all those who still care, I will share my little simple joy (amidst all the unhappiness in the whole of 2010) with you when I see you.
Till the next post~
