So let me tell U how I feel
Just back from Austria yesterday, but not going to blog about Austria yet. Went to surf the net casually today, and got updated with some Spore news. I was shocked by the Dragonboaters mishap in Cambodia, which came as very sudden to me. 5 dragonboaters, young and able, were unable to withstand the onslaught of the sudden wave and were swept away as a result. It must have been a shocking news to Spore, and makes me wonder. Aren't dragonboaters all fit to swim? Maybe when the tides get rough, it doesnt really matter if u r a swimmer. It just dawn on me that anyone, healthy and bubbly one moment, could be gone the next, at anytime and anywhere.
Whether u r sleeping, jogging, eating, walking, driving, swimming... activites that seem normal and routine could be endangering.
Therefore, I just wanna rattle in this entry, and say whatever I feel at this moment.
Finally feeling a little stress as exams r looming.
Finally its the end of the travelling. Gonna stay put in St Gallen till exams are over, which Im very glad for it. I have reached my threshold for travelling.
I dunno if I should look forward to my end of term here, for Im already accustomed to life here and couldnt imagine being in NTU next sem. The thought of it is simply disgusting.
I dunno how Im going to face some people in Spore again. The feeling of awkwardness, the loss of the familiarity and affection, the loss of touch. Can I grapple with that? Or will I simply avoid that feeling altogether? I dunno yet.
I feel underachieved all my life. From secondary school to Uni I lost count of the number of wrong decisions I have made. I feel that Im not stretching myself to the fullest, and losing too many great opportunities along the way. If I could reverse time, I surely would.
I feel like a jack of all trades and a master of none.
I feel miserable that Im non-musically-inclined and gives up too easily.
I feel that a relationship is always unbalanced; one party is always giving more than the other. Feelings can be so transient and unexplainable, yet can be so lasting and faithful.
Despite all my shortcomings and regrets, I feel blessed still, and contented with my life now. I just need a space to whine, so spare my rattles~
