Black Days
I dunno where to start, feel that there r like hundreds over emotions flowing through my mind now, and yet I can't do much to stop the spreading...
Up till now, this week has been rather unfortunate. Problems crop up in sch work, hole burnt in pocket, personal emotions battling ferociously within, and many more minute stuff which I shall not elaborate.
This happens to me out of the blue, I can sink into depression mode just like how I can fall sick within mintues. I guess when u r feeling down, u shd talk about it to feel better, or to confide in someone u trust implicitly.
But many things r complex. Our emotions swings and changes like the weather, just like our feelings. There is a thin line between Love and hatred, and that can happen overnight. First impressions r deceiving, thats wat I always feel. The Mr-Nice-Guy u saw on day one can turn out to be a bastard. Well I guess thats the world.
I'm not a simple person. I often think alot, and more complex than the average person around me. I know it's not so good, but my sensitivity can really get the better of me. Every minor thing counts to me, and I do care about them. Who says details r no good? At least I feel that Im quite an observant person, with respect to human emotions and moods. But apparently not many people are sensitive creatures. Okay maybe they r, but they dun observe the minute details which can be important, and neglect the feelings of others. Of course, I'm guilty of that also, and I'm a super imperfect person.
And I realized time is a very good test of many things. We can often make certain decisions now and time will tell us if we have been right, or if we made the right choice. It's up to u if u wanna carry on the mistake or try to amend it and be true to your heart. Ultimately, I guess what matters most is to follow yr heart. No one else should influence you.
So I'm ambivalent? I guess to a large extent. being easily happy and sad isn't a good thing. It can be quite miserable. The best of all is to be easily happy of cos.
Does what I write so far sound so bleak? Of cos there r bright sides, Im just narrating all the negative feelings now. I'm happy to have love from people around me. Even if it's just a simple gesture like sms or msn msg, it does brighten my day. Thanks to those who often colour my life! Hope u guys know who u r!
